Hi. My name is Emma, and I have insecurities. I am afraid of being that person who is annoying, of being wrong, of not being right, of losing, of winning, of everything.

I've been learning a lot about trying to be the person that God created me to be. Not the person that the world wants me to be. You see I have a right to say...and what I say matters, you may not like it, but it matters, because I matter....or do I? It's a battle that I think we all face at some point in time, or over and over again, depending on your story.
Basically I want to be part of your community, I just don't feel welcome, and when I don't feel welcome, I feel as though it is because of my insecurities. You see them, and you make them worse.

Sometimes I'm Not So Good At Moving On.

Its getting closer and closer to the time to move on. Amanda, Lakeri, and I have been in this apartment for far too long. Of course we've got some great memories, but we've also got some not so great memories. And I was in my bedroom which is now mostly empty now that Katie has all of her stuff out, and I was wondering what it would be like for the first time in 6 years to have my own room again. To be able to sleep with whatever noise I want, to have it look however I want, and to not have to share. It's almost whole new concept.

On a little different note, I am excited about the new place. We have an apartment above us, but there is currently no one in it (so if you're looking for a cheap (550) place to live than this could be it) and there is a family next to us. And just houses around us. No more apartment complex. We have a yard, a garage, and a huge porch.


We will be having a house warming party sometime in the beginning of June, and all are welcome.

Well here is a healed updated picture of my tattoo. I am still really enjoying it and am glad that I got it.

















On another note we are moving in just under 2 weeks! I am pumped. It will be nice to be out of this apartment complex.


On one last note:
"For faith is only real when there is obedience, never without it, and faith only becomes faith in the act of obedience."
-Bonhoeffer "The cost of discipleship"
My roommate tonight asked me what I thought of this statement, and I've been thinking about it since.
Here's what I think about it: I agree with it.
i agree with it because I believe that faith results from choices. And obedience is weather or not to make a choice to follow whomever you are choosing to follow. My point is that the choices that lead to godliness also lead to faith. how can you have faith without being obedient. Wouldn't that be a contradiction? Well that's what I have to say about it. Great topic of conversation though.